2012 was a huge year for me personally and professionally in the blogging world, it was a year of reflection and self worth and I really did a lot of soul searching along the way. Early in the year the move away from the city really hit me hard and I felt a huge strain on myself and the blog, to perform, to be better to put myself out there and give it my all. The trouble was moving away from the city made everything so much harder and I felt I couldn’t give certain aspects of my blog 100% which in the year led to many things falling off the way side.
Early in the year Hello Blogger Events was thriving with people coming together from all over Queensland for our very first workshop. Everybody walked away feeling positive and excited about having a Queensland based blogging team to focus, more events in the future and allot more catch ups but all I felt was the strain of operating a business from 1200km away.
We made a pact at the start of the year to not let work get in the way of our lives, to get out there and explore this beautiful area we lived in and we did. We packed up the car, took family trip to the beach, the lake, the rainforest and made the most of our weekends. By April we had just completed our second trip home to the Territory with over 4000km under our belt for the year, we had no idea we would be making that trip another two times before the year was out.
Mid year I was lucky enough to travel a fair bit for the blog. Life was good, Driving away from home for a few days with my blogging buddies was like a breath of fresh air. These people “got me” and they got why I love to blog. Their wasn’t any or competition between us, we all had a common bond.
Coming home something shifted in me. My last blog trip was mid way through our third trip to the NT and it really struck home and made me revaluate what I was blogging about and why I was blogging in the first place. There was a lot of sponsored content on my blog and I felt like I’d stopped being real, along the way I’d lost a part of myself on my blog. Which is why I started blogging in the first place because I loved the real stuff, the moments in between. The conversation was gone on my blog, people were visiting for the giveaways but were skimming over the rest. This is something I felt I needed to change.
Over the next few months I threw myself into our little community, school, p&c meetings, extra activities after school, play dates, travel and so much more. I concentrated on finding the real me again and bringing it back to the blog. I started writing about stuff I really cared about in my life. The kids, my pregnancy, our travel adventures and all the little stuff that meant something to me.
By October we had done our fourth trip home and we said goodbye to Luigi’s father. I’d well and truly lost contact with my agent,I wasn’t on their radar anymore and there was a new lot of blogging it girls being shaped for the company. I was exhausted the last few months, the travel, the loss and from trying so hard to be who I thought I should on my blog. The sponsored posts and the money had stopped and I was totally ok with that because in my own mind I was 100% happy with my blog and slowly but surely the conversation had returned.
I could have fought for my place in the commercial blogging world but to be honest, it was always a lot of work and I just didn’t want to do that anymore. I wanted to enjoy my time living life in the real world and when I was online I wanted you to know that what I was sharing was 100% the truth, my own thoughts, my own feelings and brought to you on my own schedule.
Towards the end of the year I felt a calm come over my blog. I picked up my camera and starting shooting again, properly looking through the camera and catching the little moments in our lives. I was still working with brands but it was a lot more relaxed and on my own terms. I felt like I was making the rules and I was happy with that.
Coming into 2013 I’m not sure what the future holds for my blog. This year our family will go through a lot of changes with a new baby, another jump across the country with so many amazing adventures and I honestly can not wait!