The last few weeks have been really tough. Being pregnant at Christmas time is the worst thing I could ever imagine. The food, the wine, all of the end of year parties, the general happiness of the end of the year and actually having enough energy to remove myself from the couch and enjoy it all. Oh boy, it sure has been a struggle.
My diabetes levels have been up and down and I’ve had a few adjustments but I’m generally feeling o.k most of the time. Mum and Dad have been around the last few weeks so its been a huge help to have them entertaining the kids and to take over the breakfast shift.
We have now hit 35 weeks and my medical appointments have now moved to weekly which means I’m spending at least three hours a week at the hospital. Our last scan showed baby is measuring two weeks ahead and with my size and the babies size the doctors are now talking induction as early as next week. I’m not sure how I feel about this just yet and I’ve managed to buy myself some time and see how I go over the next few weeks.
I’ve always enjoyed pregnancy but I have to say this one has totally taken it out of me and I may have just reached my limit. The diabetes has really put a downer on the whole baby making process and sucked the love right out of me. Everything feels very tight and I feel like my insides are bruised and there is just no more room to grow.
I remember being pregnant with the other girls and loving every moment, the kicks, the flutters, the feeling of excitement that we are creating a life. This time around I just say to myself I can not wait for this pregnancy to be over and start the next phase.
Induction isn’t my chosen choice of labour but right now I’m open to all options and I’m happy just to see how I go on my own as long as its healthy for myself and this baby to do so. I have never heard anything good about induction and I have always had smooth, stress free labours so i guess thats why I’m a little skeptical. The end goal is coming out of this journey with a happy, healthy baby and if luck is on my side..a baby who doesn’t have a head the size of a watermelon!
Singlet 1: Emerson from BigW $6
Singlet 2: Cotton Cotton $5
Skirt: Impulse buy in Sydney
Necklace: Christmas present from the girls
Shoes: Rubi Shoes $5